Chronic Illness and Worship

Hello friends and family, and those beyond the worldly eyes,

A thing that hit me earlier this week was a huge fibro flare. I was utterly useless. I was exhausted, in pain, and unable to purify myself like I wanted so that I could do my weekly senut (ritual offering) obligation. I was very angry, as this was a day I designated to do nothing but worship. I couldn’t shower, and I couldn’t cleanse my mind of the pain, and I thought to myself.

“Why am I limited by my body when what I want to do is so simple? Why am I stuck in bed, why was I cursed with this hurt, and anguish?” I felt so betrayed by myself and my plans, and a little hurt at this inability to communicate with my Gods in shrine. But that’s when an idea picked into my brain like no tomorrow.

“What if I made a beside shrine, for when I am forced to stay in bed and nurse myself back to health as I cannot be a formal ritual do-er today?”

What if instead of going to them, I bring them to me, so I set up a Beside shrine, and mentioned this to a couple of friends who have graciously participated as they also require self-care days!

A white cloth, a space for Incense, and icons of one of each of my parents from the RPD, Khonsu and Wadjet. ( Carved Ear a gift from KentaurusDesigns during a Retreat gathering of Wep Ronpet! Go check out his shop!)

I find myself meditating on this Shrine, and finding what can I do to have simple worship, what can I do with this to help others!

I reached out to a couple of friends of mine, and one of them set up a shrine bed-side to support Her on days she is also struggling.

Beside Shrine – Ushedimuti (Child of Mafdet and Sekhmet-Hethert)

Feeling like you are stuck behind a bodily-paywall is horrible, and having to put up with feeling alone, and like you have broken promises is not what my Gods want for me, I am sure. So, I adapt. I do what I can, when I can. When I am not able, I leave offerings beside me on the stable tray. I recommend if your bed is not level to a tray, to get a table-tray, or sitting tray (think laptop tray!) to leave items on!:

  • Cloth
  • Electric Candles (So you don’t fall asleep with them going)
  • Icons, statuettes or pictures of your Gods
  • (Optional) Incense holder (with sand or without) (If you cannot do incense, oilve oil, or ritual oil (I recommend from Tatuayinepu, their oils are fantastic) .

And anything else you’d like to have, on there, go for it. I recommend keeping a bottle of water, a spray bottle so you can purify, and a snack that is non-perishable at your bedside!! Beyond that, not much else is needed. I like to have lunch on the table tray with my Gods when I am bed bound. It’s not a fun time, but they yunderstand, and enjoy my presence.

I hope that this helps give you a little idea of what you can do while ritually impure. This applies to disabilities, and things like cuts, or menstruation, depressive episodes. Whatever you are dealing with, the Gods will be there for you.

Until I see you next time, Senebty and much love……… Stay Strong

Hakenensenu.

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Published by Hakenensenu

Shemsu-Ankh in Kemetic Orthodoxy, a Neokoroi, a Sedir, keeper of Santa Muerte, Master Reiki Practitioner, Chronically Ill, Disabled, and Autistic.

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